life
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we never dated
I haven’t had the cleanest track record with dating. In fact, I’m known in my family for (unintentionally) leading guys on a lot. I find it kind of funny. It’s a seasonal occurrence when some guy falls in love with me just for me to accidentally play in their face. I don’t mean to. I… Continue reading
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Iris
I have a problem. I delve too far into my future that I begin planning it out before things even happen. Right now, I am thinking too far deep into my future children and my genetic eye disease. I’m still not entirely sure if they’re even going to exist. I’m not sure how much worse… Continue reading
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BOKeTE
There is a reason why I feel so intensely and why I get so annoyed with people who have wronged me. No longer existing is inevitable. We never know. Nothing is ever promised. It annoys me that I am the only person that sees it this way. The reason why I try to make things… Continue reading
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End of Beginning
This is goodbye to my teenage years. I went through so much as a teenager. I experienced so many heart breaks, friendship break ups, drama, negative thoughts, eating disorders, body dysmorphia and learned lessons I never wanted to learn the hard way. I never imagined I’d be proud of myself for getting through it all,… Continue reading
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So Long, London
I had a whole story ready to be published as my final goodbye to my ex-boyfriend on this blog. After careful consideration, I realized there truly is nothing more to say. I have chosen peace within myself. I have chosen to forget about his existence and to destroy every trace of our relationship. He has… Continue reading
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Silver Springs
Your biggest mistake wasn’t letting me go. Your biggest mistake was thinking you were better than me, more attractive than me and more successful than me. Your ego was built on my tears and now that I have no more to shed on a low-life like you, your empire will collapse. All that will be… Continue reading
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Are We Still Friends?
I recently came in contact with an old friend. This was a special old friend. A friend I have written about twice on this blog. A friend who will know this is about him when he reads this. He broke contact, finally, and apologized. For so long, I was waiting for this to happen. I… Continue reading
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This December
This December, I have goals that I am going to put all of my energy into achieving. This December, I’ll remember all of my worth. This year has been the shittiest year of my nineteen years on this earth. All of my friends and family know this. Hell, even the readers of this blog know… Continue reading
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Where’d All The Time Go?
You know how life goes. You say you will never miss high school but once you walk across that stage, nostalgia settles in and suddenly you miss when you were a lovefool sophomore with unbraided hair and dozens of necklaces. You hang out with teachers that made an impact on your life, you tour the… Continue reading
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girl i’ve always been
I’ve had some questions asked by friends about my eye disease so I thought I’d share my thoughts, feelings, and experiences living with retinitis pigmentosa. I’ll start with my negative feelings. I hate that I can’t see but I hate knowing I can’t see even more. The built up frustration I have towards my eyes… Continue reading
Midnight Reflections 