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we never dated
I haven’t had the cleanest track record with dating. In fact, I’m known in my family for (unintentionally) leading guys on a lot. I find it kind of funny. It’s a seasonal occurrence when some guy falls in love with me just for me to accidentally play in their face. I don’t mean to. I… Continue reading
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Iris
I have a problem. I delve too far into my future that I begin planning it out before things even happen. Right now, I am thinking too far deep into my future children and my genetic eye disease. I’m still not entirely sure if they’re even going to exist. I’m not sure how much worse… Continue reading
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You’re Losing Me
I know I make a lot of comments, jokes and treat my three year relationship break up lightly but it was very serious. At least to me. Making the decision of walking out on everything I had built for me and this person was so hard. I believe I can say it was the hardest… Continue reading
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What Was I Made For?
Do you ever just look at photos from when you were younger and want to hug her? Lately, I have. I wish I could’ve done things differently. I wish I wasn’t so naive at sixteen. I wish I could tell her so much. I know she’d be so proud of me. She’d love the woman I’ve… Continue reading
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Getaway Car
This is a post I honestly never thought I’d care enough to make but here we are. I really had a friend getaway car a good man and I actually felt bad for him. It made me think. Damn. I did that to someone. I guess karma got me real good this time for what… Continue reading
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End of Beginning
This is goodbye to my teenage years. I went through so much as a teenager. I experienced so many heart breaks, friendship break ups, drama, negative thoughts, eating disorders, body dysmorphia and learned lessons I never wanted to learn the hard way. I never imagined I’d be proud of myself for getting through it all,… Continue reading
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So Long, London
I had a whole story ready to be published as my final goodbye to my ex-boyfriend on this blog. After careful consideration, I realized there truly is nothing more to say. I have chosen peace within myself. I have chosen to forget about his existence and to destroy every trace of our relationship. He has… Continue reading
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Silver Springs
Your biggest mistake wasn’t letting me go. Your biggest mistake was thinking you were better than me, more attractive than me and more successful than me. Your ego was built on my tears and now that I have no more to shed on a low-life like you, your empire will collapse. All that will be… Continue reading
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Are We Still Friends?
I recently came in contact with an old friend. This was a special old friend. A friend I have written about twice on this blog. A friend who will know this is about him when he reads this. He broke contact, finally, and apologized. For so long, I was waiting for this to happen. I… Continue reading
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This December
This December, I have goals that I am going to put all of my energy into achieving. This December, I’ll remember all of my worth. This year has been the shittiest year of my nineteen years on this earth. All of my friends and family know this. Hell, even the readers of this blog know… Continue reading
Midnight Reflections 