Midnight Reflections

After years of being held captive and thrown overboard I have officially washed up on shore. I haven’t posted a story in so long but trust there has been so much going on in my life. 

The more life goes on the more I realize I could write a book about how hectic it is. 

 I’m choosing to end all my previous eras and start new so technically it hasn’t ended. I’m just actually so fed up of this year jerking me around, it’s not even funny anymore.  

I’ve realized that I am in control of my own life so I can decide what I do with it and I decide I’m fucking done with the last chapter. Get me the fuck out of nineteen and into the next age.  

Now, I’m even closer to turning twenty-teen, meaning an even newer era of my life is beginning. I’m officially starting a whole new decade soon and I’ve learned so many things in the big twenty five that have somewhat prepared me for such a change.  

This year has been filled with challenges, hardships, and obstacles that I never thought I could overcome. I was swallowed by a current and left beat up on the shore but at least I survived. I ended up in places I never knew existed back in January. I had times where I thought I chose the right path and ended up in a ball repeating ‘there’s no place like home’ endlessly.  

This year has been all about fucked up things happening to me. I’ve been getting tested left and right. 2025 has thrown curveballs at me and my family and really confirmed that nineteen is one of the worst ages to be as a girl.  

I look back at 2024 and at January. Wow. That’s all I can really say. So much shit has happened that I can’t even fathom just yet. I don’t think I can really complain though? It’s like.. I endured so much and the journey to where I am right now in life was fucking crazy but worth it? I feel happier even though I quite literally went through the depths of hell.  

Maybe I’m just dramatic.  

I feel almost brand new though. I feel bejeweled. I feel safe and secure in a treasure chest. I’ve had hardships this year but I’ve also gained new experiences and ended bad habits which is always a great thing. 

Lately, I’ve been really trying to look at the positives and I’m grateful to have a good handful of them.  

I hate that I haven’t published my writing. I have so many stories that I don’t think I should post and I don’t think I will. 

I’m thinking of ending my blog era this September. 

I love writing. I’ll always love writing. I’ll always write. I just don’t know how to go about this blog. It’s fun having it. It’s like giving randoms an inside scoop of my life but I never know what content to give.  

My life is truly a thick book and I don’t know if I want to let people fully know about it. The opps are on the loose and I don’t plan on spoon feeding them.  

I know one day I’ll come out with a book about my life and leave readers with their jaws to the floor so I’ll wait til then. 

Written August 27, 2025

-A